Be Careful

I gotta tell ya, I am scared. I'm scared my hearing won't be restored and I'll be deaf in my left ear. It's hard - really hard to think about that. I've had people tell me "be careful what you wish for!" when I say I just wanna be able to hear my KIDS. They don't understand - seriously, hearing my kids little voices means the world to me. Mikie came in our room in the middle of the night and was talking to me... I had no idea. Erk told me this morning about it. Erk had Mikie come tell him the problem cause I wasn't saying anything. I couldn't hear him. Argh! I feel like I was just here with my ears - fortunately this "damage" isn't in my already corrected ear. I shouldn't have taken that 5 months of hearing in both ears for granted!

All of this to say I'm anxious to see the ENT on Thursday night (they squeezed me in after hours). Please pray that my hearing will be restored. I've been praying too that if it isn't restored, that I will be used in some way. Selfishly it's really hard to accept it's possible I might be partially deaf all over again...